Wow, I just realized it's been almost a month since I posted anything. It seems a little overwhelming to comment on everything that's happened in my life in a month, so I guess I'll just write whatever comes to mind.
I really like the songwriter/singer Bebo Norman. And not just because he's from Georgia, though it seems like a lot of the artists I like are from Georgia, even though none of them sing country music (I really, really dislike country music). I like that he tries to sing about things that are real, things that he's experienced himself, and things that are deeply true about God, and I like that he is a good poet as well as a good composer. I was listening to some of his songs the other day as I was working at home (another story in itself) to finally finish a very time-consuming and mind-numbing project. One song (Home is Where You Are) is about his mother and how deeply she has affected his life. Another song (All I've Sown) is about his grandfather's deep love for his grandmother who has just passed away and talks about what amazing joy and fullfillment there is in the relationships of family. I think that in all my thoughts about having children sometime in the (hopefully) near future, I sometimes forget about the deep joy and love that many people have expressed about their children - perhaps because I've not yet experienced having them myself, although I do have great examples of that love and joy in both my and Chad's families. I hope that when we do have children, I don't forget that joy in the everyday chores and tasks that come with being a mother. Even more, I hope that I can find more of the joy right now in my everyday life, both the "good" and the "bad" - in washing the dishes, deadlines at work, watching our herbs grow, dealing with micromanaging and passive-aggressive project managers, great conversations with Chad, dinner with friends we're getting to know better, dealing with anxiety, paying the bills, etc. etc. etc. I know that in everything there is a bit of Jesus waiting to be found, noticed. I know that I can rejoice in my struggles because in my weakness, He is strong, and He is shaping me. I think most of the time, I just don't remember that those things are true and I don't live in/out that truth.
I am excited that three of my friends from college have just had their first babies, and all are healthy and recovering well (2 C-sections!).
Enough thoughts for now. Perhaps I'll write more often. :)
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